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Half superhero, half witch, and doing hard things in sobriety.

Last night I felt like a huge witch lady and not a cool witch, like a mean, nasty wicked witch kinda situation. I was telling Ben that it wasn't FAIR (foot stomp) that I had finally figured out how to take care of myself, gotten sober, made good choices left and right and now, here … Continue reading Half superhero, half witch, and doing hard things in sobriety. →

Alexis Uncategorized 2 Comments August 18, 2018 3 Minutes

Travel, weddings, and other typically boozy fun

"What's the most important part of your wedding?" my Dad asked. I had just lamented aloud my choice to buzz and bleach and then color my hair, less then 2 months before my wedding. I knew the answer, of course, and it has nothing to do with my fuzzy orange head. "Getting married". My Dad … Continue reading Travel, weddings, and other typically boozy fun →

Alexis Uncategorized 1 Comment August 5, 2018August 5, 2018 5 Minutes

I was an island on fire once.

Why the slow dreamy image of an island keeps returning, I can’t say. It’s the picture that forms when I close my eyes, clumsy attempts at meditation or at least a softer gaze inward. I have felt like an inhabitant of an island for years, or more accurately, the island itself. It was on fire … Continue reading I was an island on fire once. →

Alexis Uncategorized Leave a comment July 5, 2018 3 Minutes

Spirits doing human things, without masks.

I'm in a pretty steady up and down pattern right now. Two weeks on, up, positive, and clear. Two weeks wrestling anxiety like two feral cats fighting over a cardboard box. That box is also my head. It's tricky. I mean, I'm in the good two weeks right now, so I use words like tricky. … Continue reading Spirits doing human things, without masks. →

Alexis Uncategorized 1 Comment June 6, 2018June 6, 2018 3 Minutes

Take care of you.

My best friend's mom left this comment on a picture I posted years ago. It was a picture of my face, with a giant scrape on my nose. I had fallen on my face. "Take care of you", she said. It took a bit, but I'm trying harder than ever to do that. You too? … Continue reading Take care of you. →

Alexis Uncategorized Leave a comment May 15, 2018May 15, 2018 1 Minute

Not a chill girl.

I am retiring “laid back” from my list of “ways I want to be”. “At peace” is a way I want to be. But “laid back” is way too close to “chill” which is just another bullshit way of saying “lower your standards”. I'm too sober and alive for that shit. This desirable state of … Continue reading Not a chill girl. →

Alexis Uncategorized 6 Comments April 4, 2018 2 Minutes

Before and happily ever after

Oh hi, here's me! There's this non-profit I like, Big Vision NYC, and they're doing great stuff in the substance abuse space. They asked me to share a bit of my own story, and a "before and after picture", for their social media pages. My first thought was "Aw, shucks, y'all!" and my next thought … Continue reading Before and happily ever after →

Alexis Uncategorized 2 Comments December 10, 2017December 10, 2017 3 Minutes

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